hello. i wanted to do a third installment of the girlhood ezine but um i noticed midway that i was writing/talking about things i didn’t plan on talking about but i guess it could count. i wrote about my thoughts on msgs and vibrations translating through touch(i was thinking about this video a lot), things/notes i have gatthered as a queer immigrant in the closet and dealing with safety, and other stuff. it’s not v long but i hope it helps someone or calms someone, i dont kno. thank u, i hope u r having a great night. 

here it is, u can download it

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vasclet asked:

I didn't really know if I should leave an ask or not, but I was curious if you had any advice for..I guess just getting to the feeling that no one but yourself has to validate you? I always feel like you have so much confidence, & I would love to feel my own confidence more often.

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you know i have been very lucky to have a wonderful support system in my family and friends that i never felt unsafe to fuck with my identity. or like, when i did feel unsafe, it was too late to dictate how i lived my life and it just filled me with rage and motivation because i already knew i was worth way more then that. my parents used to tell me they didn’t like things but they never made it my fault that i wasn’t living up to their ideas of what they wanted. thats the valuable difference in shame and distaste, i was taught that people not liking me is not my problem to solve. it’s not your problem to solve! and in school when i started dressing singularly, i got punished, yeah, but i wasn’t beat up and even when i was scorned i could still remind myself that i was doing it for my own enjoyment. like, who the fuck cares what other people think. are they paying your bills? what are you getting out of it though? you realize we’re going to die right? whatever situation you’re in is temporary? all things pass. do what you wanna. you only have so much time. focusing on pleasing others because you’re too wimpy to be your own hero isn’t gonna make you proud of yourself in retrospect. not everyone is gonna like you, ever. not ever. you’re not going to win all the time with everyone. and that’s fine. that’s not the point of doing things. do things because you want to, because you have to do them for your own agenda, because they’re gonna make your life better, and fuller, and full of meaning. don’t let them smell your fear cuz it gives them power. even if you feel super scared that people will laugh at you or not like what you do, like, don’t let that guide you away from doing something. cuz then they win and you miss out. and you only get so many shots. get going. 


by Kurt Vonnegut

Random line: That’s one thing Earthlings might learn to do, if they tried hard enough: Ignore the awful times and concentrate on the good ones. (page 117)